I Would Be Fine Poem by Manonton Dalan

THIS morning i have this feeling
so absurd
pouring your coffee;
wrapping your lunch
to get a hug and kiss;
monotonous thanks
my mind, my body not connecting;
DISTURB

so i went
to have my hair done;
get massage
dropped by clubhouse,
chit chat and get buzzed
i never thought of you
but i have so much fun
new found friends
let me feel i’m someone

later on
i went home, oh! ...
my fear sinks in
my FEELINGS.
there’s un-explain desire within
i took a jacuzzi bathe;
it took me a long time
but fear still there;
i’m hoping i would be FINE