So Hard Poem by ally lira

so close to death, so far from life
youve made the decisions that got you to where you are,
you look back and all you see is pain
everytime youd seek some help,
they all would disappear, run screaming from your side.
they lie to others about who you are,
they tell the false tales,
and ultimatly tear you bit by bit all the way from your head...
to your toes,
inch by inch they cut and tear and break away
your every being.
your murderers are all youve loved,
all that you thought loved you back.
they use and use, abuse and trash you,
but you keep coming back for more? ? ? ?

i dont understand,
how you only wish to be loved,
you just want happiness and family,
but you never get it do you? ? ?
the never want you, they just want what your willing to give them
your all.
you cant cry, your too messed up in the head
your secrets that are hidden, theyre starting to resurface
you give your heart out only to be rejected, repeatdly.
the scars, they never heal, thetre only daily reminders,
of who you are, and what youve lost and where youve been.

so many things theyll never unserstand
so strong but yet the weakest link
they dont understand, how its so hard
to just live with all thats inside.