I Never Asked... Poem by hazel jackson

I never asked you to give up doing what you love just to be with me I only wanted you always I never wanted your money I wanted your heart, your attention, not your attitude or accusations, not your lies or your hatred, not the cold skin from the back of your hand on my face not your judgement

I never wanted your pity your constant phone calls your storybook messages or your apologetic voicemails all I wanted was for you to tell the truth look me in my sorrowful big brown eyes and tell me the truth but instead you gave me late nights at the office (as if I believed that s*** for 1 minute) coming home the next morning smelling like fresh bath water calls you all of a sudden stopped taking in front of me and started taking them alone in a room or outside, late night phone calls, night creeps and broken promises.

I asked for you to leave my keys to the car and my house for you to lose not only my number but my address but most of all my heart I'm happy I withdrew myself before I gave too much of myself to get back before I gave so much that I couldn't or wouldn't have the strength to leave you.