hazel jackson

As i look at all the graves i think about sharp blades knowing i could die is like knowing i cant fly.

As i think about taking my life i begin to thimk of a lie mom, dad it was an accident i fell and im innocent.
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The better days of our relationship are what kept me here, I couldn't wait to see where this friendship lead us.
We were so close...Pre-k besties, idols of one another, now we fall short to even notice each other.

We are like strangers now, you play your role as a G like a pro around your friends, yet..im still the same.
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You make it so hard for me to choose because there's you and then there's him how the hell do you decide between two beautiful people with a heart so big.

My head throbs my heart hurts my hands tremble my body aches what am I supposed to do I've never had to do it before...I've never been more afraid in my life.
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Could it be that you cant handle me or is it the fact that your angry because im leaving you.
'breaking my heart you would say as if i would care, you were only a stand by of my imagination.
no true relation ends in friendship if you know what love truly is, as young as you are i dont exspect you to know much.
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I woke up today and my little sis asked me to play, I told her may be some other time.
I saw you from a way and you ask to talk about my day, I said maybe some other time.
A old friend stopped me today just to say 'Hey', I told her maybe some other time.
I wanted something to munch because I didn't have brunch, or lunch but I figured hey, maybe some other time.
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Roses are red violets are blue
I'll do what ever I can to be next to you
the days are right
the sky is so bright
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I was let down by many and unseen by plenty and abandoned by any its like you put my life to an end and didn't know it was a sin.
could I ever make you see that this was always just me,
I could never hurt or change anyone, all I wanted to do was see someone new, besides the faces that use to be new but are now old.
where are the people?
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take away my fear if you would plese bring me what i need to get to you. i hate being afraid to talk to you, touch you, be with you. i just wanna be able to see you when i want, and take pride in what i have because your mine.i dont want to cry and suffer because i cant get to you....i hate the fact of when im near you i panic...help me to break out of my box, put down my guard and approuch what makes me want you...and thats you.
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You say no one can love you like you want tobe loved, but i can you say that no one can be there for you, take care of you, stand by you through thick and thin, when you say things like this it hurts me because i realize you dont pay close enough attention to whats in front of you and you never will,
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Im hazel and ive been waiting patiently for you to appeare in my life and today i dont think will be the day because today ill be hiding from you waiting for the right time to approuch you and tell you that i like you and wanna be with you......my name is
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Break my heart if you please everybody knows that you dont care for nothing in life or yourself and you will never care not if today was your last day on earth what someone close to you left you here alone with no where to go and no one to run to when times get hard.....then what woud you do? break...
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who would understand what I go through in life who would be their to watch me crash and burn who would help me.....
I waited on the people I thought cared about me to show up when I was in the hospital to give me what I wanted most,
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why is it that you always ask me questions and then ask me am I sure
do u love me? yes
are you sure? yes
why is it that you wish to be the way that you are and still be here with me, you make me fill that you don't trust me. should I believe you... and are you sure? ... I wonder sometimes.. about you that is why cant you let the next question be something that you really want to know and stop playing with my emotions, our relationship is not a game.my love for you is real and as for you is that really how you fill. And am I upset.. oh yea you bet, but because I love you I give you another chance.... last question..
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I searched everywhere and I haven't found what I was looking for yet
I wonder if its found me yet.
and is it just waiting watching me wondering when to make a move,
I use to wonder the same thing when I was in high school.
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I've been here before I have seen these things before.
I look back on these memories and its all of you the happiness of me, the thought of you.
it was with in me, with in us to change what was then and now is
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