God Please Help Poem by Edgard Canales

Sometimes it's hard to go on
when you are far away and all alone
we Skype and talk on the phone
but when we say goodbye I hear the change in tone.
Back against the wall, feeling down and out
no ground under my feet,
knot in my throat,
I just want to shout
GOD PLEASE HELP,
help me be a long distance father to my daughters
help be an uncle to my nephews and the world's best brother.
Lately I been so confused
powerless and I don't know what to do.
My baby she's been acting up
getting in trouble in school and stuff,
never though I would be in this position so it's too much
too much for me to digest
haven't slept in days, my head is a mess.
My baby's mother said I should speak to her
but all she does is cry and says yes sir.
Sorry I was never there
now the pain I feel I can not bare.
As a kid I was also super smart
but made stupid choices cause
of all the anger in my heart.
I sang the saddest songs
came form a broken home
and my father figure's gone.
So much I want to say
like Nat
I been through some sh.t that you won't even believe when I was your age.
made lots of bad decision so they put me in a cage
all my closest friend are in the pen or somewhere forgotten in a grave.
In my heart I'm more disappointed than I am mad
cause it's sad
so much potential can go to waste fast.
Just look at me
had so much opportunities
now I regret all the times I thought I had immunity.
At times I feel like I have no right
my sisters and my brother have basically raised you for me
all those years I was out of sight
and they still do
so my heart is bruised up black and blue.
I always thought we were really tight
but now I understand it wasn't enough when
you visit me in jail or that I wrote a million kites.
In tears I hold my head down and say a prayer
gotta dream big and hustle harder when life ain't fare.
Never give up and always chase your dreams
strive to be the best no matter how impossible it may seems.
True friends are just a few
when your lost, pray and God will tell you what to do.
Be a role model to your little sisters
respect your Mother cause when she's gone you will surely miss her.
You will always be my baby and my heart
even though we are thousand miles apart.
GOD PLEASE HELP,
help me be a long distance father to my daughters
help be an uncle to my nephews and the world's best brother.