Clocks Poem by Charles Burgos

Clocks are a reminder, time will never set still
Most days I sit in boredom, with time to kill

With the words in my head, all tossed about
It's train wreck in there, sometimes I want to shout

Speaking out loud, telling my thoughts, opening up
I kept it all inside, selfish I know, filling like a cup

I was wrong in the past, I had chances to explain
We were connected by circumstances, but not the same

One break up,2, so many as time goes on
Many years pass by, now I know I was wrong

All of them said many words, but the same thing
I walled myself up, let nobody in, I'll never change

It's funny in ways, how they were right about it all
Sad, but true, now I want to open up, I have no one to call

I write it down, read it, then burn it, and watch the smoke go
It's like watching the mistakes I've made, fade away slow

You make me nervous, cautious, you words are very enlightened
Your a badge, I'm a wanted man, the chase is on, the hunt is exciting

Reputations follow us, sometimes it's based on fantasy, it's all the same
The one I had, I was a bad boy, I never took anything serious, it affected my name

Some people know me, some wish they'd want to
When people tell stories and lies, what can you do?

I was real to you, it took a lot to show, and smile
I enjoyed your company, it was short, but lasted awhile

Our relationship was there, it was called many things
When it was over, we were children again, calling the other names

I'm sorry for the pain, I took you for granted, and just acted in shame
You thought I was somebody, I wasn't, I was just a name

You knew what you did, but you wanted to know more
Truth be known, I wanted to tell you everything, when you walked out the door

I have so many regrets, I wish my nightmares would end
I told somebody once, he used it against me, he was my former best friend

You learn in life, good, bad, all of it at once, separate at times
I'm not not lying to you, these words aren't just words in lines

Do you remember the nights when we laughed, with just ease
Everything got complicated, soon after, there was no peace

We almost became serious, but my answer screwed it up
I picked the wrong words, I ignored your feelings, I messed up

I never meant to do that, we both agreed things wouldn't change
But they did, I lied when I saw you, I could see in your eyes, the pain

You said hurtful things that night, I deserved some, but not all
I lied, I said I regret knowing you, I could go the rest of my life without seeing you at all

That was my way of just telling you goodbye
I watched you walk away, tears in your eye

I didn't feel great, happy, just filled with hate
Not against you, my actions made you that way

I live in a time where I sit and think
It's been years since I fell, I don't drink