'Bittersweet' Poem by NiQi Deveaux

Sift and sort
This to conform
Bend, twist, contort
This is the norm

From what it is
To what I wish it to be
We're slaves to dreams
And call ourselves free

The free part is
Choose what you will
Beat it, Tie it
Drag it all uphill

But upon the moment you
Wake up and see
It's a jolting shock
Of reality

Like lightening through
My brain, and I,
Don't want to see
But I realize

That all that I
Had conjured up
Was poured into
A holy cup

It leaked a trail
Dried by the sun
No escape I see
No where to run

Fact is this was all
Just in my head
Once was feather light
Crawl in my bed

The weight of the world
Lies on my chest
I want to sleep
Can't even rest

Let the healing begin
Though I'd rather die
Than to wake with you
Not at my side

Death's a bittersweet end
To a glorious life
Snuffed out a flame
We feel it's not right

Come to terms with all
That we regret
Should have said I love you....
In life....But you know...
Somehow... I bet....


N. S. D.