Anticipation Poem by Lucifera Santez

The moon had tarnished again,
The stars seemed so dull,
For the first time I was afraid,
So afraid……………………………….
I had shoved her out
From my life, yet I sought
Her again and only her………………………..
Yes it terrified me,
Loving her did………….
Scared me to bone
The feeling left the ache in my heart…………..
I had hurt her,
It was there in her face
Heavens yes I wanted that she could fly
I didn’t wanted to bear the burden
Of being the first to take her innocence
She was everything I wasn’t
Lively, lovely and open to life
Like the merry ray of sunlight
I was dark and dangerous
Her heart brimmed with love
Whereas mine was calcified
I knew it would devastate her
When I would break away from her,
She thought she loved me,
I knew she was delusioning herself
Now that she is long gone
I miss her beyond my limit,
Remembering her is painful
But still her face gives me hope
Hope for miracles
My long frozen heart has started to feel
The feelings that I thought were long gone
There is raw energy inside me
As I drive towards Kansas city
Yeah I am going to see her………………..
I am going to apologize
And say something I have never said to anyone
It doesn’t matters if she would forgive me or not
Because I am following a thread of hope
That someone very special had told me long time ago
Love heals……………………………………………………..