Kylie Ehlinger

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I am a mother of two, two very beautiful girls. They are my truest passion, almost everything I do is for them. I say almost because sometimes I have to find a creative outlet just for myself. I am currently working on writing a novel, even if I never have it published I still enjoy writing. I have never been one that understands poetry, but I can write a little bit here and there. My circumstances have been rather dire lately, so taking up writing again has helped ease my mind and given me something other than the dredges of life to think about. I can't say I am a great writer, or even good at it, but I like that it doesn't have to be perfect. I write what comes from within, even if others don't necessarily like it or understand it. I can't always express myself to those around me, so being able to write out what feels trapped inside helps me to understand myself a little bit better. I have a difficult time sorting through my own emotions, which I believe makes it difficult for me to write a poem. I struggle with depression and anxiety, I have dealt with happenings in my life that have set me on a very dangerous and dark path. My family, being my husband and our two daughters, have been a very profound light in my life. My husband and I have been through some serious ordeals together, like being homeless, our relationship has been rocky and we have even separated for a time. But we are together now, doing our best as we can only do. When I write, the pain and loneliness, suffering and heartache attaches itself to my words whether I like it or not. I hope with all of my heart that if you read whatever I have written, we may connect with one another, unknown to each other physically, but over the vast waves of energy we may find each other and know we are in this together.)

The Best Poem Of Kylie Ehlinger

Hiding Inside

Why am I like this?
What monster have I become?
I'm wrong in what I say,
Do and how I act.
It started with one thing,
And ended up a hundred.
The pain multiplied,
And has driven me under.
I cannot feel yet I feel, nonetheless.
Trapped in an isolated world
That is cold beyond rest.
The hurt won't leave, it clings
To my soul,
No amount of forgiveness
Can undo what has been done.
Bereft of happiness,
I know only what I've lost.
The sinking feeling that I, Yes I,
Am undeniably lost.
Engulfed in torments
That haunt me like a ghost,
I've been used,
And abused
And tossed away like trash.
People say one thing
And always mean another.
They tell you they love you
Only to find something better.
They say Christ died
So we can have something better,
But what does He know
Of being down under?
Under the dirt,
Buried alive,
By sorrow so bold
You'll believe any lie.
You trust and love
Until you're picking up the pieces,
The pieces of shattered trust
That was broken by another.
Anger seeps in
Until your drowning in the pain,
But no one hears you screaming
Until your drifting away.
Caught up in the tide
Of rage and aggression,
The only thing you know
Is to hide behind the shame,
You let it happen,
Now you have to bear the blame.
No one can know
What is locked up inside,
You dare not show what you can
Barely hide.
The heart carries a thousand scars,
But all you hear is
Suck it up,
Get over it,
Move on,
It really wasn't that bad.
Hurt is hurt, but no matter,
I'll hide it inside.

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