Thoughts At Night Poem by J22 Poet

I do not know, should I sustain
All the thoughts inside my brain?
Or should I instead abstain
From all the darkness, all the pain?

I fear my burden's much too great
I loathe carrying all this weight
In many ways I'm forced to hate
My currently unpleasant state

I do appreciate diversions
And other distracting excursions
But still, at times, emerge my burdens
And to thought my mind gets lured in

I despise my thoughts, however
Destroy them? I would wish to never
In retrospect they are the tether
That holds my life and mind together

So when I have these thoughts at night
I chose to not turn on the light
For if it shines much too bright
Then never again will I have sight.