The Real Me Poem by Adriana Elizabeth Guerrero

people see me as a happy cheerful person great when socializing with guest and other people they always see a smile on my goofy face always trying to cheer some one up yet they have no idea whats behind the smiles and laughs the giggles and cheers not knowing its all show we have 3 faces one for family and friends one for people we dont know and the one we show only to ourselves and that 3rd face is drowning in sorrow and pain that side of me doesn't want to get out of bed can sleep all day yet still feel exhausted restless sleep not wanting to deal with anyone or anything just struggling to get through the day fighting with myself to get through it the struggle of dealing with the ugliest parts of my past and present not knowing what the future holds its hard it really is and no one understands it...all i ever wanted in life is peace love and happiness but each time i get just a little bit of joy i push it away because im used to the pain and suffering its all ive ever known to afraid of letting anyone or anything in not knowing where itll end up afraid of being let down or abused...ive gotten used to the sadness the hate the pain ive gone numb to it all its hard to let go of it when its all youre given not expecting anything from relationships friendships so youre not hurt in the end LIFE SUCKS
LIVING WITH DEPRESSION SUCKS EVERYTHING SUCKS.