Drowning In My Own Misery Poem by Adriana Elizabeth Guerrero

Why am I drowning
why does it feel like there's no way out of my misery
i have my family yet feel so alone
tired of fighting this fight that i can't seem to win
fighting with myself on a daily bases
to get through the day
only fooling myself that i can make it
but i have to make it for them
for i am their pillar of stability
i have to keep fighting
have to keep pushing forward
it's hard knowing that i might not make a difference
not knowing what the future holds for me
to scared to talk freely
only to be judged or criticized labeled unfit
i've came a long why from where i was
and should be proud
but im only afraid
wondering if the worst has past
or only coming upon it
why why cant i dig myself out of the bottomless pit
i've fallen into
my hands bleeding from trying to climb out
Lord hear my cry
give me the strength to get through
can you here me
are you there
are you with me
cant get an answer
i only wonder in thought
lost with out words
why did i go through this
why am i still going through it
whats the purpose of it
why?