Should I..? (Sad) Poem by Poet of the River

Ultimately its my choice,
my call, my voice.
my final decision,
to pull away,
or make the final incision.
Iv always had to run,
but now I have a gun,
don't ask me why.
I finally have a chance to end.
all I have to do is let the trigger bend.
and I wont have to cry.
but I'm optimistic, iv felt severe strife.
tell me, in your opinion,
should I?
should I put the gun to my head,
pull the trigger, and end my life?