Shame Poem by Jennifer Gordon

This is a song in progress. I will be working on the sheet music soon and finishing the rest of the song soon.

Take me from the darkness into the light.
Bring me from the shadows of the night.
Baptize me of all the pain.
Wash the remains.

I can still feel you in my blood.
All the presence you had.
The effect is done.
It's too late to erase the scars that you have lane.
I can feel you,
I can feel you in my chest.
Your presence brings unrest.

I can't sleep.
i can't eat.
Without the thought of you.
Such a bitter defeat.
I can't believe what you did.
I feel so low. like I've bowed down past your shin.

I know the worst has yet to come.
So I leave you here with my bottle of rum.
Let you drink the poison that corrupted the sober right out of my skin.
I can feel the rage.
I can feel the pain.
I can feel it. Creeping and crawling through my veins.
It has a power.
That I used to enjoy.
all that adrenaline.
pulsing through me.
just like sin.
and I hate it
. I hate that what you do has got me falling apart.
piece by piece
like humpty dumpty.
I've fallen and I can't breath.
I can see you. Standing there.
feel your presence there.
you and me.
We aren't right. We're not meant to be.

that's why I scream and shout.
to let the remnants of you come right out.
I hope that you see that this is the end of you and me.
Drink all the pain.
Feel all the shame.
Cause I was once tame.
And KNOW I AM INNNSANNNE! !

YAH! ! ! ! I am like a lion busting from cage.
I want you to come to me.
I want you to set me free.
I want you to dare, put your finger on this cage.
SNAP! thats the sound of my jaws.
Crushing and breaking all of your paws.
you're an animal.
you just aren't right.
Look what you've done to me.
you have changed me from what I used to be.

I'm not that same girl.
She's done a 180 degree twirl.
I suggest you keep away.
If you want to keep looking that way.
you have destroyed all that I used to know.
and you have nothing to say.
you enjoyed it all the waaaaaaaay.

LOOOK what you DID to ME!
YOU'VE CHANGED ME RIGHT OUT!
FROM INSIDE OUT!
and you know it!
DON'T TRY TO HIDE!
JUST SHOW IT!
SHOW THE shame!
cause you SCARRED ME INSIDE!
with all of your lies.

you have flipped me upside down. and you turned my life around.
Don't you DAaare!
Don't you DAaare!
Don't you DAaaaare!
sit here and tell me your lies.
Like you tried.
Don't give me no bullshit about the bright side.
I still know you and your insides.