Omission Of Guilt Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

I'm just visiting then I'm out.
I'm not here to make your life better.
I'm sorry I'm not your dear, your baby, your hun, or anything else under sun.
It's barely a friendship.
So cold and distant.
It's not you, It's always been me.
From the very beginning.
I won't pretend, I won't lie I don't think I know how other then with omission of guilt I continuously feel.
For leading you on, making you happy about something that ain't real.
Spiritually, physically, mentally.
It's just financial arrangement.
No matter how you plead your case.
That door has already closed once you exposed me to all the addictions.
The afflictions that haunt you like a whole family of ghosts.
I'm already planning for life without you.
Without this place I currently call home.
It's not my fixer upper.
I've got no attachments at all.
No personal effects.
Not a single important possession I can't live without, no photos, no posters, no tapestries hiding these bare walls.
No furniture of my own, I don't even eat or do my clothes here.
I won't allow myself to become dependent on that which I do not trust.
And I've already seen how vindictive you can be when you see someone as the enemy.
So I will write my own ending before there can become these hard feelings.
Sooner, sooner, and sooner goes the ticking clock.
Winding down like some great football game.
So close and soon it will be over.
I won't look back because it not responsibility never was.