Not Wanting To Say The Words Poem by RoseAnn V. Shawiak

Yesterday was filled with thrills and excitement, being to-
gether, kissing, hugging, making love, sharing a bond that
only we two could have.

No room for anyone else in our lives, being and becoming
one through many nights of a lifetime, our love reaching
fever pitch every moment we were together.

Desires being ignited by your kisses, passion driving us
both totally wild, never any thoughts of leaving one an-
other ever crossed our minds.

Living in the moment through the years, waking one early
morning, eyes opening, seeing you sleeping, but something
just didn't seem quite right.

Putting my hand on your chest to feel you breathing, but
there was no movement at all, tears forming, heart stopping,
mind screaming silently, no! no! Dear God, no!

Rising, getting out of bed, calling 911 and crying, not
wanting to say the words that were being felt deep in this
petrified heart.

Having to force the menacing words, "I think my husband has
had a heart attack, please hurry, he's not breathing! " Now
sobbing, mind thinking he was already gone.

My love, my heart, my being dying instantly inside, praying
to God, hoping against all hope that I hadn't lost my one
true long lost love once again.