My Life As A Color Poem by Nancy Chanthakoun

Living in the forever surrounding shadows of the black
Following me around, never letting go
Bringing in the heartache whenever I show
Clawing my way out of the consuming black hole
Leaving scars that burn, the sizzling sound of painful memories
The silhouette of the black heart tries to find its way in

Locking myself behind the black mask that hides from
The real black world it truly is
Hidden beneath the black shadows of my life
Red glaring faces make me bleed

A flowing stream of thick red liquid
Ignoring the searing pain that goes through

Keep my head low, away from the hateful black sun
Away from the scowling faces, away from my bleak future

A black cloud follows overhead, pouring its depression upon me
With nothing to protect myself, to cover me from the inevitable
I allow the black abyss to come and take through and take its place

Black tears run down my face as I bolt away in haste
From the heavy weight that holds me down

Drowning in my eternal misery
Deceiving faces fall from black skies
Awaking my soul and making it rise
Breaking free from the black cell that kept me in place

Holding onto the truth and
Looking past the blackness that is my life.