My Friend, My Savior Poem by Alicia Renea Carpenter

Somebody tell me what’s going on
Somebody tell me what happens next.
Because I’m completely lost
I’m utterly scared.


I sit here waiting on dawn
Waiting on your text
But you just think of sex
And I’m unprepared


What you think of scares me
I just want you
Not just physically
I want all of you

You wanted to flee
And I knew
You weren’t all there emotionally
And I knew.

But I put myself in your hands
Knowing you’d let me down
But I do it anyway
I’d give everything for you

You’re my man
My very sound
That keeps the bad things astray
I wanted to be that for you too.

But you wouldn’t let me
You pushed me away
You made me think that I wasn’t worth it
You made me hate me

I just couldn’t see
Past the first day
So I threw a fit
And she made me see

That you just weren’t right for me
I see that now
And I’m glad she was there
Because friends are hard to come by

And even harder to keep

She kept me from being down
And she kept things fair
No matter how I tried
She never let me take that leap

I’m happy now
And I know I won’t go back
To the way I was before
So I thank my friend

And I hope I can be there for her like she was to me.