Why Can'T I Let Go? Poem by Alicia Renea Carpenter

Will I ever let it go?
Why can’t I just stop? !
Stop comparing everyone to him! !
Why can’t I just let go? ?

Why do I hold on to the memories?
Why do I see his face in every guy I meet?
Why can’t I just let go?

This is my breakdown
My way of getting out of my head
My outlet of the world around me
Why can’t I just let go?

I push it out of my mind.
But it just keeps coming back
To torment me at the worst time
Why can’t I just let go?

I loath him
With every fiber in my being
But when he comes around I cower in fear
Why can’t I just let go?

I know I can do it
I just have to push myself to do it
I have to push and push
Until there is nothing left inside

Why can’t I just let go?

Can you help me?
Can you save me from myself?
Can you help me sleep at night?
Can you help me let go?