Melancholy Of Profoundness Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

A melancholy of profoundness
A mystical sensation of innovation has come over me
It’s the Gaia tree
It gives life to that was once dead
And it’s bringing out the best
All I want is replace the distain, the hate in my heart
With compassion
Help mankind in such a way that’s everlasting
Fearing the repercussions of past actions lies in my way
Waiting anticipating my every movement
So I finally found the courage to repent
Forgiveness is but on the rise
The grey skies are just another disguise
Trust no one
Being constantly numb is done
Over under any way to get through to the other side
Where the sun shines a little brighter
The burdens are getting lighter
Shedding off the layers of what has become my skin
But in truth it’s my demons
For every time I screw up I just walked away
Pretend like everything is okay
Hoping the memories will fade
But instead they turn into jade
A solid stone
Melt my soul
Cause I'm tired venturing this life alone
Help is for the asking to most
But I've been ostrich sized like a ghost
Forever haunting those who disgraced me
Another euphony has come and gone
I have a feeling it won’t be long
Till my sacrifice pays off
It’s a cost I had to pay to keep my head above water
So deep
It’s constantly sucking me in
I 'm drowning in my own self righteous bullshit
Perfect is but a mistake that has yet to be made
So why wait why contemplate or debate
Chances or what it is that makes us
Who we are today will not be the same tomorrow
Welcome to my horror
Welcome to my lack of honor
So cold that I wonder why I'm not already dead
Cause all serenity has driven me to search out an ends to a means
Wash my hands and come clean
I won’t make a plea or disagree
This is an absolute surrender
Of a defender for what was thought right or wrong
Never questioned where my emotions belonged
Constantly detached from my body
So this is definitely my melancholy of profoundness