Keep Falling Poem by Carmella Stajanca

I. Keep. Falling.
Regain my composure and stand up again...
But then...
I think of my past and get so traumatized that I can't relax. I get these flashbacks nd my stance doesn't last...
I feel myself stumbling slowly... A trip is creeping onto me.
Then again...
I. Keep. Falling.
Just when I thought I had my balance something else comes along nd steals my focus. The ground I rest on drops like a quick hocus pocus. Everything I gained is out of reach for the moment. Words race through my brain... I feel like i'm on speed. I say terrible things I know I don't mean.
Then still...
I. Keep. Falling.
In and out of my positive state of mind.
I feel paralyzed... I am now crawling.
I can't stand up again what's the reason why? Selective amnesia has caused me to forget to try.

(Nov.20,2008)