If God Sends My Maa For A While! Poem by Shahzia Batool

If God Sends My Maa For A While!

Rating: 4.7


I shall lay my head on her knees
Believing that God must have cured her arthritic joints in heaven,
Then she will brush my hair with her fingers
And I shall tell her all my soul suffered from;

I shall complain of the bouquet of roses
That pricked my hands despite the silk-ribbon
And scotch-tape woven around it carefully;

I shall tell her the tricks of the winds
Blowing roughly on me leaving all others
And of clouds that shower benign rain
On all others leaving me,
Though I stand under them with a bowl
In my hands raised skywards
Which stays dried up;

I‘ll feel she smoothes my hair
I am relieved, and her sweetness has removed
The wrinkles of my crumpled soul successfully…
I shall feel an urge to tell her
That I miss the apple-jam she used to prepare for me
In a sauce-pan,
And that I have left eating the soaked and peeled off
Almonds and raisins with a glass of milk;

I shall clarify that I am telling her all
Because I don’t tell
Such things to anyone
Not because they won’t listen to this
But because I have lost my tantrums wild
Somewhere in the fields of my childhood;

I shall ask her
Does she listen to my voice while I recite prayers
On her grave?
Does she see when my brother removes the frozen candle wax?
And washes the tomb-stone?
Or showering petals on her earthly-bed?

Yes, I shall tell her
That cooking shows are no more interesting now;
That all the tragic tunes interpret my heart
And all the sad songs sing of my soul;
But, will it be wise to tell her all
That might cause pain to her?

I shall have no idea of her allowed duration with me
So, I won’t tell her, or ask from her anything
But this, that we all are settled in life,
And that I am happy
And then I shall smile
as big as a smiley-sticker, ear to ear
and I won’t let her know
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-
-
that my pen bleeds still…

POET'S NOTES ABOUT THE POEM
~~~ some scattered thoughts that forced themselves upon me, i am sorry for this ~~~
COMMENTS OF THE POEM
Lyn Paul 10 September 2013

A truly beautiful, heartfelt write.

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Hazel Durham 15 September 2013

I love your poem with such raw honesty and deep emotions you endearingly paint in words a beautiful portrait of your dear mother and also reveal your innermost thoughts!

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Ramesh Rai 03 September 2013

a beautiful write. i hv one bengali poem Mayer bhalobasha. if any how u can understand plz do read.maa k hath ka banaya khana ka jawab nhi hai. waise aap ki bhabhijaan ka bhi koi jawab nhi hai.unke haath ka pulaao ka kahana kya. sorry deviating from poem. it is a tribute to all mothers.

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Neela Nath Das 03 September 2013

Shahzia, my eyes are full of tear right now.Beautiful poem.

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Chetna Sharma 03 September 2013

Heart touching poem Shazia, am in tears!

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Ramesh Rai 30 November 2023

MANY MANY..... HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY. MAY GOD BLESS YOU WITH LOVE AND PEACE. EACH AND EVERY RAY OF SUN MAY BRING A LOT OF JOYS IN YOUR LIFE. HAVE A NICE DAY WITH FULL OF FUN AND JOYS. HAPPY BIRTH DAY.

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Sarah Shahzad 14 January 2020

One of the best poems i have read really it is an amazing piece of poetry! :)

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Khairul Ahsan 01 February 2019

This poem overwhelmed me with sadness. I could relate to your 'scattered thoughts', dear poetess. 'and I won’t let her know - - - that my pen bleeds still' - so wonderfully the poem ends, kudos!

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Paras Ali 12 January 2016

But because I have lost my tantrums wild Somewhere in the fields of my childhood It is an awe-inspiring share and an expensive tribute on Mother.

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M Asim Nehal 18 September 2015

Outstanding poem...Heartfelt.........Artistic writing...WOW...I loved it. Dil se re....

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