I Will Not Leak Our Secret Relationship Poem by Nur Meiyati

Don't worry
I told myself as if I was talking to you
I will not leak our secret relationship
Your position is safe
You will not lose your face
Not because I love you so much
It has ended without trace
Since I realized that I was wrong about you and myself
It's not because I want to protect you
As I always tried to mind your position, and your family life
I put your everything above all my needs
Even I loved you more than I loved myself
But this time I mind about me

Respect yourself and keep in your mind that you are valuable
When you have nothing in your life
At least you still hold your dignity
Never disgrace yourself like a beggar
That is how I have been raised
So I will never beg to you again
Don't bother to be responsible for me
Besides, .... what can you do for me and our coming baby?
You don't have to worry, I will never commit suicide
You don't have to worry, I will never kill our....ah no, my baby

(Indonesia,12th October 2013,20: 11)