I Go Poem by Natalie Nicole Story

I'm sorry dear...to disappoint you
...I'm sorry I didn't live
...I'm sorry
please know I love you
...I never hoped to hurt you
...I only ever want to help
but I don't do that very well, it seems
I don't like this dream
I want to wake up
because nothing is as it seems
I didn't ask for perfection...
just a continued connection
life hurts and growth does too...until it's the fruits you enjoy
I only asked for someone to join me on this journey
this journey with gains and pains
I don't mind the pains...they bring gains
but I guess I'm not the preworkout you want
I guess I'm just put in the back of the shelf
I do love myself
I do love others
I can't stop feeling this awful
when I think it's passed it hits me again
waves
of nausea
of not being able to breath
of everything being taken from me
I'd waited so long
to have it gone
I met you 2 years,2 months, and 2 days from the vision board drawing
I've loved openly and deeply before
but never was I so sure
nothing feels like you do
your arms
your chest
your gaze
your taste
I didn't ask to marry
just to be together whilst you tarry
sighs
this hurts more than my dad dying
how does this not hurt you
maybe I'm just stupid
I'm always a fool
at some point...a silly goofy fool