Actress Of My Nightmare Poem by Oni Omotayo

I had a dream so tender and young
A dream filled with the colors of love
A dream of a fairy, who made her nest in the stars
The imagination of a poet and the longings of my story
I waited much longer than I hope
To discover several to be but a smoldering coal
The lustrous blues were beclouded in the cold mist
I did dredged, but rare is the heart of a Gold
There are bounties of beads on my strings
But there beside me sit the emptiness of her praise
While roll the boat of purpose I ran into a darling young soul
She wears the panache of nature
I never knew if the fateful day was appointed in life's diary
Or it was the accident I thought it could be
She's however the fashion of simplicity, an art born of a model
I thought of her to be a princess if her father wears the crown
Or the priest's daughter if her father wears the ephod
She isn't the best but her soul is set with the finest
She tends the field while her mother foster the weak
A sister of brothers whose thought is shut in her
She stepped into my world like a dream unnoticed
I stumbled on the stone of affection and lo it was in her eyes I fell
While pacing before the altar wanting to say some prayers
But my eyes were untied
I stumbled on what seems a temperate bond
I thought it would be easy turning my back to win the life I use to live
Lo, it didn't turn that easy; I could not set my eyes away
She defiled my ego, and enslaves my heart in a quiet love
And the steward of the prevailing love stories wasn't me
For she did conquered my heart
I wore her cloak of friendship but she's neither my friend
Nor could I name her for a lover
My definitions of love and where to find one is all gone from me
Blown in the winds of enchantment
And this was the craft of her magic wand
She is all I see, she is all I know
I could not embrace the much love shown by much fair ones
For the cart of my will is hooked in the wheel of her carriage
She is all I love, she's become my definition
I barely remember the name of my first love
I forgot my second love and every night I prayed for my wife
But she is all I want, like all I ever wanted
She's close and far inch against inch
She never took me in and never let me go
Seems love took vengeance for my shortcomings
For her who at a time love me dearly
Only to drop her blossoms for my indifference
Who wrote for me a poem I could not keep
If only I could explain my choices, I would plead also my course
But the past laid her curse against my innocence
Have I done such grave harm?
Save crossing a path I could not explain
Unwrapping a naïve heart to the shining dawn of love
I failed in my words
She opened wide the wings of her hope to love
Nay the very door of her heart
But I was gone from her, she called but I never looked upon her
I denied shedding my ink for her
But love had made me shed a tear for another
Lo for my sins, for this be my crime against love
Now am dying to love a girl who holds me in the mid mist of uncertainty
So painful is the feeling of hers inside of me
My sleeps were broken for a restless thought
And my imaginations running wild
A hearth of fire among woods so is the flames of her passion
It seethes around the streams of my veins
Will she ever be or rather let me loose from my lonely nights?
Her names have gone over my books
She crushed me when I needed to love
While others tried, even the finest of many maids
None would conquer her grip in my heart
It's fastened to my morning breath
Leaving me out all day to wonder and hope
Going back to bed without the scent of her hair
To see my love dreams turn pale
The appalling nightmare that deems my lamp
The actress gawk with the eyes of an enchantress
And poured in me the distress of a distant desire
Waging a balance between a fearless hatred and my timid love
All I ever regretted was looking into her eyes
However she's guiltless, yes she is truly fair
Yet if beauty be character, I have never seen her
I gave now a sacrifice that this fate may set me free
I cried not for her, but for the weight of this burden
How much it hurts, standing in the midst of forbidden pearls
Been this much a coward with the one I love
Oh giving this much for someone who would not hold up her eyes
May I now fly away never to perch close
Save she be the queen of destiny
Save she is the choice of the heavens
If so be, let then I pray the embrace of love
Let her lay her circlet to ascend the high places of my palace
Or let go her holds that I may hold onto another
Will she be to me indeed a ‘Blessing'?
Or do the biddings of recompense that has made me cold in my dreams?
Nothing else matters except my affection is tied to her
Let heaven speak if she is the diamond amidst my beads
Or open to me the gate of your rain to flood away the tide of my thought
Let me cry the night now if she will ride the horse of another
For much of my dreams did hold onto her
But she had not light for me the candle of love,
Yet my heart burn for her.