Matthew Edan Oliver Palma

laying beside me through the night
i stare joyous at your wondrous sight
as my past, present, and future seamlessly unite
i silence the worries of uncertainties that might
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I love you more each day
I miss you, every hour of the day
Longing to touch and feel you
To see you once again…
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... A memory, a grin, that look of laughter in my eyes
then flashbacks of joy that resounded our hearts' smiles
but not a moment to soon came the pale shades of whys
muting every hue and dimming the giggles in our lives...
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lost to me is the sound of your voice
'though I've heard it a thousand times before
lost to me is the feel of your touch
'though I've felt it a hundred times and more
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It's useless to stay when my heart has gone away
So senseless to try for my mind has said goodbye
Quite futile to dare as my soul has heard its call
Too easy to quit since my spirit can't resist
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People change and lovers become estranged...
and yet the heart is slow to let go...
and the mind torments the longing soul...
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Sadness reigns
With every dropp of rain
As my tears fall down
In this feeling I am drowned
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When do we say that we have had enough?
How long do we brave our hearts to stay tough?
For a moment, a minute, an hour or a day?
Just when do we decide to finally go our way?
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Butterflies flutter and flowers bloom
The sky is filled with fragrances that adorn the moon
The scent of your breath erases the gloom
When I am With YOU, joy comes too soon
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I despise this feeling...
This uncertain fearing...
Of things that are transpiring...
Signs that love may stop blooming...
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The most beloved
the closest one
the one in whom my soul confides
does surely wield the most unkindest cut
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I whispered to the wind my wishes for you today
And just like yesterday I hoped it'll reach your ears
I wished with every gentle blow of the wind you'll feel my warm embrace
I wished with its soft gentle gust you'll feel my hand caressing your hair
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Long walks and crazy talks...
Senseless arguments that sprout silence...
Sudden bursts of laughter that break the ice...
Such profound questions about this life we seek...
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As the distance comes between us
My tears, for me have spoken
As time starts to forget us
I grieve my heart you've broken....
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Away from you, I lose myself
clinging to every soul my hand has felt
yet since it's not you I'd fall and break...
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the more I try to stop it
the more I fail to hold it
these tears fall like rain from sky
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as promised, a love true
the one who holds my heart's still you

we might have said goodbye
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This unending rain
It refreshes the pain
Can hardly stay sane
All my strength simply wane
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I am sorry if I've been strange. I am sorry if I pressure and confuse you. I am sorry if I love you.
I am sorry if I can't play your game. I am sorry if I can't bring another into the picture so we can be together. Letting you in is already more trouble than I bargained for.
I am sorry if I must stop. I am sorry that I got weak. I am sorry that I'd stop trying to figure you out. I am sorry that I am letting you go.
I am sorry that I let it happen. I am sorry that you are dragged in it. I am sorry I smiled. I am sorry I said 'yes'.
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you seem to have this genuine notion that I possess a magnanimous heart
- and I believe our time together had calcified that image of mine in your head...
- after all, you have seen me in so many times give things, trivial and otherwise, to those who ask - and to those who need more...

i must confess, however, that I nonetheless remain extremely greedy
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