Ashleigh R. Gardner

you left me for someone that didn't want you
i had no choice but to let you go
but you released me and i healed
and i feel stupid for regreting letting you go
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as the rain patters
the glass shatters
i think of you
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confused and searching for the right things to say
i still don't know why you left me this way
i'm like a picture with out it's frame
the corners burned and crumpled, not looking the same
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beyond the shattered steps there is a wall
made of glass and perfectly clear
one can see everything, i can see everything
yet, i climb, i still climb that glass wall
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I can see you
My eyes can't seem to close
And even though you can't see me
I still want you
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I have a saying that goes unheard,
a vision that goes unseen,
and accomplishments that go unnoticed
but no matter how nonexistent I may seem,
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i know i'm not perfect and i try too hard
and i hate the way you make me feel insuperior
i hate what you've done to me all those countless times
you used me, you broke me into so many small pieces
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the flashes of light are reality
and it's not so bad
the hurt drifts away
and it's almost like being free
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i've seen through it all
the glass, the window panes
i've seen it
i've seen what you can do
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you said come sit on the floor next to me so i won't be alone
i wanted you to hold me so i didn't hesitate to come
your arms were so warm i didn't want to let go
but i opened my eyes and saw that you were gone
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it's like a thousand knives stabbing you in one place
and there are many places
it hurts that bad
and you did this to me
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it was all about you
and now you don't exist
look into my eyes
and you won't see your reflection
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i know you feel so differently
it's safe to say i'm not used to it yet
you turn the other way when i see you
your eyes turn cold when i say that i love you
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keep on laughing, that's what i used to say
before the torment of having you
and then never having you
now i'm ok, i feel released
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as it rots away, i drift away
saying nothing, hearing enough
but the sting of it all stays
pounding in me, staying tough
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the distress, the anger
they've been my allies
putting myself in danger
trying to believe your lies
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cutting out pictures in the magazine
feeling stupid because i'm not seen
as the pretty girl inside
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All around are the wrong answers
black, dead flowers
superman without his powers
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Well I can say that I'm happy
A little happier than what I used to be
I found the light that used to shine so brightly
And I think it's here to stay
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'i can feel you, you're in pain
and you want it to just go away
your knuckles are tender
from beating the walls that will stay down forever
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