Stephanie Fleharty

My Drug
You have to be my drug
When I see you I get immediately ecstatic
When I kiss you I feel weightless
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afraid to love
afraid to be
alive and see
everyone looking down at me
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I’m afraid to love you
I’m afraid to leave you
I’m afraid to hurt you
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i kow it doesnt seem true
but dad, i couldnt live with out you
if your feeling pain just tell me
i'll take the pain from you
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I have only one freind
and oh she is so true
she's been through what i've been through
her heart is still on the mend
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everyones around me, but i feel so alone.
no one can help me, i am unknown
Your not here when i need you.
so is what you say untrue?
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i thought this would make things better
before i end it to write a letter

to tell all who thought they loved and cared
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if god really loved
then why would he hurt the inoccent
if god really cared
then why did he leave me alone with bleeding wrists
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you called me stupid when i said cut
you called me fat when i ate alot
you called me ugly when i put on makeup
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Continuing my self destruction
the hate of lifes construction
the aid of suicidal thought
helps my life as it rots
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X Love, greatest acheivment,
Most painfull loss.....
So why love at all?
why go through all the pain
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they wouldnt tell me what was going on
the wouldnt tell me what was wrong
they said i didnt need to know
but your my brother and i have every right to know!
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you see me, now you dont
you loath me, now you dont
you befreind me, now you dont
you thought you liked me, now you dont
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did you hear? did you here?
about all the pain all the fear! ? !
did you hear? did you here?
of every stupid little tear! ? !
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Love is so unfair
there may be a person so perfect for you
but you are not perfect for them
you may be in love with someone
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This is a old chinese poem.

I saw you in a dream,
If I knew it was a dream,
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as he lie crippled
dying in his bed
his breath a mere ripple
in the air of dead
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Never Say Forever

Never say forever
Never say always together
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Love is unfair
your heart hates you
nobodys cares
about what you do
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im a shadow on the ground
im a snowflake in a snowstorm
but im also that girl that you'll meet once in a lifetime
im that mood wich makes you smile
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