Samantha Jenks

My spasms gasp of breath driven into the core
Elevating in the depth of the mind
Fragments pervade into your atmosphere
Clinging so dearly to your paramour
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Veracity in the nightmare of hollowness
I’ll eternally subsist in bereavement
This heart these emotions are synthetic and hypocritical
Undeniable the void
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My torpor speaks the fiction to me
As I slip into an eternal slumber
The anguish in all my lies
A fist squeezing me on the inside
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Tears fall like petals from the wilted flower
Rivers run and flood
Sweep the dust away
Atop the mantle wind the clock
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I was assailed and bewitch by the melody
The adherence to your grievance
You can find me in the clearance
The interval between the crescendo
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Will you follow the invocation of the fallen?
Watching all the motions you go through
All I know to do is shed a tear for you
Suit with your Stepford faction
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I can’t go on living this way
Employing power in existing mistakes
Insidious action, forlorn me
My compassion slowly slips free
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Ill lay my sins at your feet
Though you won’t empathize with the motive within me
Ill repent and ask of a beginning I won’t prize
Did you know the destruction concealed within a tear
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Well forgive me please nothings as perfect as it seems
Will you forgive me please I’m not everything you’d thought I’d be
So forgive me when lie
It’s not your fault I’ve just been living on my own time
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And what I realize that what I have left after you’re gone is that I have nothing
That when I’m apart from you I’m apart from me
Everything I love about me is found in you.
And when you take you away I lose me.
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This is the dark abyss
Where a heart used to beat
When smiles weren’t far and few
Before I lost faith in love, lost faith in trust
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Some days in times like these I can’t see the end
I can’t reach for the light I need. I want arms to
Fall into, to save me, protect my heart, guard my life.
Hands of warmth have grown cold, I run away from.
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You still mean everything to me, but the pictures fade I’m left with a memory.
Why couldn’t we make this work, disappear all my thoughts that have grown to hurt.
I’m suffocating in my world I’ve chosen, the grip on my neck feels like it’s frozen.
My room seems so empty so so bare, nothing’s the same without you here.
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You love me pulling me closer inside
I love it with you my smile can’t hide

You make me feel like everything’s all right
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Broken, can't be fixed
you lied, i believed
i feel into a trap
you got what you need
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