Why I Prefer To Live Alone Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

Give me a moment.
I want to find a specific way,
To tell you this.

Okay...
The reason why I prefer to live alone,
Is the company I sometimes can not avoid to keep.

Some people have a legitimate feeling,
That is sincerely felt as it is meant.

Some people need another presence,
To keep control of a conversation focused on themselves.
I have been in contact with these kinds of people,
On many occasion.
With a wish to exit as quick as possible.
And I was able to do that,
Because i was not in my own home.

Some people are just into themselves subconsiously.
With a unending 'Not-a-breath-to-take-zeal'
That creates an atmosphere squeezing the freshness,
Out of a peace that reduces a hospitality one ceases.
And...
This might be mistaken for boredom!
And i like to maintain a cordial presence one feels.

However,
Making no mistake of it at all...
I find sometimes your presence,
Leaves me with a headache.
And sometimes I can take it.
But on days like these that I want my peace.
You disturb that willingness I had to share it!

Give me a moment.
I want to find a specific way,
To tell you this.

I like to keep a flow of communication,
That is invitational.

You on the other hand,
Seek an audience to deliver devoted attention.
That kind of activity,
Wears me out.

Today...
I am feeling,
Less the member of an audience.
And more like...
I would love to see a performance,
Come to a close.

Like...
I want my door closed.
So I can be left alone to take a nap.
You understand that...
Don't you?
That's why I prefer to live alone.

And...
I am yearning my preference for that now!
But...
You are welcome to stay as long as you wish,
Under those conditions...
Knowing I have a great love,
Right now...
For solitude!