What Is This Love? Poem by Liliana EL.

Have I begun to fall away?
Distance myself, ignoring you?
Have I faded and dulled against a dropped shade against which I lean?

Perhaps I have dissuaded you
Pushing you aside, erasing you partially
No, you are not the main focus point
There are others who take center gleam
More prominent, attracting, dominating
Mysterious and untouchable to me
Foreign and somewhat forbidden
New and far, yet so close

There are others
I have refocused
I have reconsidered

Yet, my focus seems to drift and float
I do not settle, commit, take charge for some aim
I ponder and wonder and observe in some clouds
I am up there, not all present
I am up there, shifting and untouched

Perhaps I am too timid and naive to dissent and impress upon the ground
Too shallow to take root
Too dreamy, silly, and timid to bother to try

Right there, right there
I do not even have to reach
Just open my mouth, smile, and look to connect
Meaningful, deep
Yet I hold back and debate
I discourage and elude myself, saying that it is okay
There is no need
There is no way
There is always next time

And then, next time comes
And it is once again too late

Oh, heart
Oh, mind
Why must courage in relationships be so difficult, so complex, so attached with spurting emotion and confusion, so foreign and unreal, so perplexed?

Oh, me
Oh my

Just quit the piddling and decide!
Set to your track
Create it
Stick to your set
Embrace it