What Is This? Poem by victoria mbali

I'm scared
I've always been scared
of expressing my feels

I have no weaknesses
I say
no one can break my heart
I say
I give no one my vulnerability act
I say
I don't beg, GOD provides

Then comes............
This invader, stranger
I feel so weak when I'm with
Talking becomes an issue with
hiccups pounding me like heavy waves
My eyelids bowing every second
Water fills my knees
My heart beats heavier and faster

What is this?
I' scared to know

Makes me laugh
Says the right words at the right time
makes me feel special
makes me feel important
makes me feel complete
OH, what a filled life

W hat is this?
I'm scared to know

T hey say things come and go
will this go?

I'm scared to know.