Want To Live Again Poem by bree nada

There's so much bottled up inside of me that i dont even know where to start. I thought we could just be friends and have a great time. you have porblems with your grlfriend and come to me. you tell me joking that i should be your new girl and inside im screaming out 'YES YES! ! I WANT TO! ! ! ' but i just smile and joke. if i told how i really felt, if i let my heart do the talking i would just be scaring you because you love her too much to caer about me. Lately im finding it hard to even talk to you because i just cant be myself. i want you to hold me tight and say that im the one you belong with. but the more you talk about her the more my heart breaks. i cant tell you. I CANT TELL YOU. but its driving me crazy.
im trying so hard to just be your friend but you care about her so much that my true emotions about you show. stop trying to win her heart! stop trying to make things better with her! she doesnt love you! stop trying! im the one for you just open your eyes and see! how many times has love left me shattered and lying on the cold floor.
i can feeling happning again. 'pity those who have never known love'
this line always makes my heart stop. so many have loved, so many have come close to loving me but decided i want worth it.
why not me? what makes her so much better than me?