Want To Clear My Mind Poem by Veruschka Nicole Eiman

Hi there, there is some things
that i just cant bear
when you drink
your actions are really unfair
I've known you for a few weeks
and I must say i really fell inlove with you
I want you to be my life longtime boo
In the beginning you said you'll try your best
to make me happy
like now that aint true
all am feeling right now is blue
I don't know what I did wrong
or is it because we haven't seen each other for so long?
Its hard for me to stay strong when the guy
I love is treating me like am nothing
remember am also a human being
I don't like the way you treat me when your drink
that time I feel like i can sink
sink deep down into the earths core
what am I to you?
a total bore?
my heart is so sore
I really do love you and I do wana make you happy
but how?
Please tell me now, I decided not to text you
because you really made me sad
I was just more than mad
it feels like your not serious with me or
don't even wana be and don't say
its not true
because I can see
It feels like the relationship
is not a 'we' but an 'i' relationship
and i feel like I can flip
before you reply make
sure of what you want please
am begging on my knees
cause in this small time period
I have cried a lot and i want it to stop
I don't want to be a play thing please
I don't want to be pushed aside cause that's
exactly what you do when you drink
Your attitude towards me really stink
yes I know am not an easy person
I thought that you would atleast made an effort
but you didn't
one text and that was it
maybe am just not the girl for you
cause stuff like this really breaks me
and then am the kind of person I don't wana be


(This poem is dedicated to my bf C.Mcnab)