To Nobody Poem by Somebody Insignificant

To Nobody

Some men write letters to their unborn child
An expression of love in a world gone wild
If my life were to end before yours begins
I want to share my love and make amends

But my letter is not addressed to an unborn baby
But to an unfulfilled desire that someday, just maybe
A new life could have been created if I had been a real man
I'd have loved you and nurtured you and been your number one fan

I'd comfort and care for you and make everything alright
I'd even chase monsters from under your bed each night
I'd have found you the best Mummy in all of Australia
If I wasn't less of a man and a worthless failure

I can see it in my mind like it was really true
Mummy and I at the hospital, and I'm holding you
Wise men had told me that life held no greater prize
Then the first time I'd hold you and look in your eyes

But society is sick, judgmental and flawed
If you are born different, you're simply ignored
You don't measure up; you're not a real man but just a joke
So kick away the chair and go hang from your rope

I didn't have endless dreams, just a few
To be husband to Mummy and Daddy to you
I was asking for something I should never have expected
I should have known all my dreams would just be rejected

So I'll leave this life the same way I started
Still less of a man, just more broken hearted
Less than all others, not worthy, just broken
Which way to the exit, to cash out my tokens

All I wanted was to be happy with Mummy and you.
The only dreams I had, just those two
The only things I wanted but could never be had
To be a husband to your Mummy and be a little baby's dad.

You were never conceived, never existed, that is true
But there has long been a place here with much love for you
No matter how badly I wished and wanted or how it made me sad.
Some men never get the chance to be a little baby's dad
You will never be but I will always love you