To My Heart Poem by erin maher

I tell myself these lies
each and every day
everyone around me
only hears what I say

I tell them that my thoughts
of me and you are passed
and that I got over you
exceptionally fast

I said you were always ugly
and I never looked your way
you were always a jerk
and I don't know what made me stay

I tell them that I hate you
and you were never worth it
I always say I'm over you
and that you're gonna get hit

But I could never hurt you
even though you hurt me
and without your love
there is a flat line on my EKG

I'm going straight into
cardiac arrest
no one see the broken heart
hidden deep inside my chest

These words I say
I really wish I could believe
but the possibility of that
will never be achieved

My mind tells me hate
my heart is screaming love
I really need some help
from the good Lord above

My dear heart is breaking
my eyes are secretly crying
the line on my EKG
shows how quickly I am dying

Heart, please don't let it show
I hope that no one sees
these feelings that I truly have
for the boy I used to call Leaves

Please make the feelings go away
I truly am so sick of tears
get me over the boy who broke my heart
so many times this year