Thoughts In A Deserted Kitchen Poem by RoseAnn V. Shawiak

In depths of loneliness, one fact stands out above all else - despair.
Life is not great or happy - it's one big ugly maze of worry and
frustration.
Why go on? Why not put a stop to it?
Get rid of old memories of love, joy, a sense of usefulness.
They just make life even more unbearable.
Family and friends won't even notice your disappearance - they're
too caught up in in their own worlds and cares.
Why then, if no one else cares if you live or die, should you
throw in the line?
What would it accomplish?
Just another funeral to attend. Not much different in appearance
and style from any other.
Why waste your time and energy to snuff out your little particle
of life?
Why not live and die when your time is up?
Why not just accept the fact that you're alone, forgotten, despised
and make a life of your own.
Choose friends with care and build a new relationship with life.
Start over, as it were, in another atmosphere.
One that you like and can live easily without too much strain on
you because of the change.
Get your own life together and don't worry about what people think
of you.
Chances are, they are jealous or envy your life, therefore will
do all they can to destroy either you or your relationships.
Step over feelings of abandonment, rejection, lack of confidence
and trust.
Start by realizing that you alone are unique.
Who else could accomplish or come even close to the wonderful
and good things you did in your past?
What about the future you say?
That can be handled easily, because once you get a clear perspective
of yourself all else suddenly falls into place.
You must get a hold of yourself - be able to look at your life
and say - hey! I did this, that and the other thing wrong.
But look! - Look at this! - it's really great!
I really accomplished something here! My life isn't so bad after
all! It's amazing all the things I did right! And the way I
treated others - hey! I am a good person inside. Life is really
fun.
Suddenly you have realized that what you have is life.
That's quite a discovery. So what if you did something you
shouldn't have - it's all changed now isn't it?
You have the power to rearrange your whole outlook and way of
life. Do you realize what that means?
It is in effect a fact that you can create a miracle out of a
mess.
How truly great and consoling it is to a lost and lonely heart.
Life can be good, not just partly, but completely - and me -
little tiny me that I am - can create it all by myself.
That's neat!


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