The Troubled Servants Plea Poem by William Naval jr

Emptyness, loneliness, abandoned, to blame
Unworthy, broken, rejected, ashamed
Why.... why am i here, why not take me now
I surrender in tears, my life to you i vow

This place has no grace, no love like your own
To this earth i was born but it is not my home
The people here turn away from me often judging my pain
I cant imagine them loving me like you do through my shame
Why this being, of all the creations i could have been
You created me with feelings and i feel like i was designed to sin
I hate it, i despise it, this cannot be my design disgusted and sickened by the sin that is mine

I choose you lord, this day and all days ahead
I reject sin, i accept and long for Jesus instead
I know im impatient and wish i could just be with you now
But if that not be your will lord, then i beg your holy spirit come down
I need you if im to remain in this unholy land
I need you for i am lost, my life is in your hand

Hear this prayer, i beg your kindness to my plea
I know im nothing, be not angry with me
I beg for your spirit, let it dwell in my core
Enlighten and enrich me for your servant is poor.