The Indigo Orphan Poem by Mduduzi OneMind

Left alone
Rejected by society
Having unfriendly vibrations
Piercing my conscious
In solitary, sentenced for self-destruction
My spirit wants to move on
To charge forward like a brave warrior, but my body is paralysed
My mind is confused, must I go? Must I stay? I Remain hidden
The war within
The darkness is slowly consuming my soul
Illuminating my existence with hatred
Sensing negative auras
They don't understand! Why I spend a day alone in my room
It's a prison torture cell,
where i'm trapped to doom
The prayers are not helping
The church doesn't see me as one of them, plus I think the Bishop is a hypocrite.
They don't know my pain, they don't see the chains that keep me restrained
They say I need Jesus, I need to pray and beg for the forgiveness of the Lord.
Little they know, That the samething happened to Job.
I walk with my head facing down
I swear death would be an act of grace, than to live to see another day
I keep climbing on the Jacob's Ladder
It feels as if I am descending like the fall of man.
The more I climb, the more I fall
I am a sheep without a sherphed
A lost hopeless forsaken desert
Is there really a God?
Would you ask him to rescue me from this miserable demoralizing situation?
I don't care, if its Buddha christ or Krishna govinda gopala
Save me like you did to your children in shambala
Empower me with strength or just erase me from the living.
I seek no advice, no wisdom of the fools
The knowledge they have, is dirty as infidels
I seek no sympathy, you keep that to yourself
If you know my struggles, then you know what I need
The fight in the sky, is exhausting my being. in agony and shame