Mduduzi OneMind

I'm starting to believe that to some of us 'happiness is just a word'
When everything you try turn to fall apart, you become furious and a target of the voices in your head. You watch the time tick listening to its sound as it passes you. Still you remain left alone inside your own shell of nightmares. Becoming far away from the light and the people surrounding you.

Torture voices antagonizing your mind. Slowly you become short tempered easily provoked filled with bitterness. You can feel the demons haunting your soul, preying on your thoughts. Life gets really harder as your life get filled with more mistakes, discouragement events, disappointments and failures. As you watch everyone around you looking all happy and being active in life.
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What has happened in the past can never be undone in
the future.
How do you progress from a past that won't let go?
How do you shift away from someone you love?
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If we stand together against the catastrophic end
If we unite and be as one like the Israelites against the giants of Canaan.
We shall be as bold as the waves of ocean in motion
We shall bring down strong oppressors like the fall of the Great walls of Jericho.
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Day and Light
Between the earthly grounds
Lies the songs sang by our ancestors
Songs of victory turned to voices of ashes
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Filled with disappointment and bitterness
Saddness and not so ending tears
Dishearten from the ambition of life
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Shalom Shalom Salem One Of The Most High
The supreme being highly intellectual
You are the seed of intellect and wisdom
You are overall consciousness and absolute righteousness
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There was once an innocent girl
A blameless princess, treasurable to her parents
She was astronomical, fine-looking and admirable as stars
With a smirk that brought tears of joy on her parents faces
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I'm sorry bad things happened to you.
I'm sorry your life took a wrong turn
And that made you a bitter person
Your hopes were crushed, those you loved turned against you.
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Dear Tshawekazi

In the beginning of our time
When the world was still black and white, quiet and loud at a time.
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You are so priceless
Divine queen with a smile that touches hearts with the essence of love.
You drive me crazy and it's madness.
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Pray for those in agony as if you were in their position of
depression.

Plead for those in solitary detention as if you yourself
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Snatched from a dream, were I began to lose my breath. I was in a state of between life and death. Taken to a place of observant, seeing the daily activities of men and women, animals and trees.

A sudden feeling of unsympathetic surrounded my presence. With a voice of discomfort that filled my heart with anxiety. My knees disconnected, and before I could smash the ground, I was lifted to turn around.
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The generation of fears and hopes,
Great expectations projected in their thoughts.

How perceptional the fututre is predicted to be as cheerful as stars,
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Born of fire, in the mist of Volcano
Under the moon, darkened with the shadows
Serpents wandering, devouring souls
Flying Reptiles, shape shifting wizards
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Sitting thinking, thrashing my innersole, not knowing whether to listen to the Darkness or to him that seem to be bright as the absolute sun that is the Light.

I recall the unkind past deep buried in my memories. How life and time have been mercilessly giving me a headache. Spent most of my days speculating about my misfortunes. How I spent my night time in isolation, with no one to love, to hug, and to save, dragging me away from such pains.
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Once in a while, thousand miles away.
Could this be a fantasy?
But why does it feel so physical and almost tangible.
Wait for a moment, to look deep in the heart.
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Take a moment, as you read, your heart will begin to bleed. The urge is too deep, the plague is to pierce your intelligent, stabbing your conscious. Followed by the screams of your tormented conscience.

You're guilty of sin, says the voices in your head. You remembered the days of your shameful nights. In the dark were you practically practiced all your unlawful fights. Stained white sheets with bloody sacrifices. Like shamans you felt levitated when your desires were gratified.
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Years have passed and still passing me
Years of tears, struggles, starvation, failures and troubles.
You remain quiet in your highest places.
No matter how much I weep in agony, you remain silent with no remorse.
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Help me, Protect me, and save me
Soon
I'll be nothing,
On a new day without a purpose
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I had a vision, a terrible sight.
unlike Jacob, I wrestle the fallen for the whole night.
rise of the moonlight, I transformed into a giant nephili.
a reptilian wolverine, choppin heads off like the slaughtering of those who refused the beast.
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