The Death Of Me Poem by Sinomhlobo Marwanqa

If you're looking for love.
Close your eyes
And with all the available toys
Expect it to play with your feelings
Looking for pity
Try next door
For I've already hurt myself and I'm turning into someone else

As my feet take turns hitting the ground
Your hands took turns mocking me.
As my liquid emotions race down my cheeks
Ndinengcinga zoba konakele phi.
Ndiyazityhola kuba ndicinga uba ndatyhuluba
Zange ndiy'cinge uba mandithathe ityasi yam ndiyityathe ndiyicuthe.
Ithemba alidanisi kodwa liyabulala
Ndide ndibenesingqala ngenxa yalomfana
Thando nto ndini eyayivela phi.
Sithi singabantwana kodwa sibe badala

I used to wonder where you've been all my life.
It dawns on me
That my eyes were widely close
Leaving my hidden being exposed
Seyingathi sisiqhelo lento yoqhekeka intliziyo.
Did God really know what he was doing when he led me to you.
Iza nini na eyam intsikelelo .
Ndanele zizifundo.
I ran towards you
Wena wandiphepha kwabe kukuphela.
I ran, smashed but missed and I crashed.
The death of me

I thought it was all a dream
And that one day I'd wake up and you'd treat me better but instead each and everyday you batter me.
You looked at me with scorn
Undonyanya ndiyilonto inyabileyo inentliziyo eyinyama.
Usana olungakhaliyo lufela embelekweni.
I'm crying yet i'm still dying
Ndide ndithini ukuze ndikhululwe kulamatyathanga
While we locked our lips you were also locking my shackles
As you suffocate me with your authority
Ndithi Bawo ndiwunikela kuwe umphefumlo wam
I ran, smashed but missed. I crashed
The death of me.
The death of me
The death of me
Ndithi Bawo ndiwunikela kuwe umphefumlo wam.