Stuck Poem by Sugar Bear

Head on my knees, the soil will absorb all my tears
The tears of ache, and elation from my reminiscences here
A bittersweet construction behind me, the place I called home
Somewhere I used to run to when everything went wrong
But Now, it symbolizes this beautiful calamity
Where it came in-between an authoritative family
Where it once held us together, then effortlessly ripped us apart
And now I’m heavily weighed with a broken heart
See money became an issue, and the issue became an interfere
The interfere led to desperation, and that desperation led to an affair
The affair led to a divorce, and the divorce built this barrier
And now I’m standing here,
With the end of the month to choose my mother or my father

How dare you bolt these chains on me?
Who am I to choose in-between?
Oh this decision’s tearing me, I can barely breathe,
It’s unfair, Mom, Dad - can’t you see
You’re destroying me

We’ve come to far to lose what we’ve become
Without two, I can’t find the strength in moving on
From the get go-I knew who I was going to lose, but Damn
I’m so confused
Mentally abused, from counting the days that I’m here with you
Mama when you call me, I have to disguise my voice to hide
The shame of the truth, I can’t even look you in the eye
Without fighting the urge to cry
You know dad might be the first I’d normally choose to leave
But I know he’s the best guardian for me
He knows what he’s doing, and he knows what I need
All the things you were to busy and blind to see
But Mama, I’ve always done whatever you've said
And I’ve bypassed all the brain wash you’ve poisoned in my head
And I love and want to be with you so much I'm easy to set
But, It’s time for me to make the move I can’t afford to regret

How dare you bolt these chains on me?
Who am I to choose in-between?
Oh this decision’s tearing me, I can barely breathe,
It’s unfair, Mom, Dad - can’t you see
You’re destroying me

Work is tough, and my grades have slipped
When I leave the house I can’t seem to focus
It’s just Blah Blah Blah, all day long
Hazy feelings, with my emotions strung
No matter how much I weep for the return peace
I know that not even God, can let this be
He’s seen how much my dad has put up,
And sometimes people just’ve had enough
And I wonder, if she ever did her part
Didn’t cheat then maybe he’d still have that spark?
And my siblings and I wouldn't even have to be split up
Choosing between your parents are tough
Especially since I’ve lived with my mom since the day I was born
And she’s protected me from harm; let me cry in her arms
We listen to the same tunes; and have the same favorite songs
And we never have not gotten along
Like her pegged leg, I’ve stayed through think and thin
And through the trial, she’s expecting my win
And I feel like I’ve sinned, because I know our time has an end
Living separate ways, I know she won’t want to behave
If I leave, she’ll feel betrayed
No matter how much I try to explain
And I just KNOW she’ll reject me for the rest of days

How dare you bolt these chains on me?
Who am I to choose in-between?
Oh this decision’s tearing me, I can barely breathe,
It’s unfair, Mom, Dad - can’t you see
You’re destroying me

The clock ticks, the lawyers ask questions
I can’t help but feel out of position
I don’t want to speak and I don’t want to listen
I just want to wake up and be out of this situation
I’ve climbed these trees, raked these leaves
Swam in this pool, and smelt this breeze
I know exactly where I want to be
Home, my once and only place of peace
Full of my neighbors, all my friends
A magical place I've grown to defend
This place is more than just a house I lived in
It's unfair
And I’m scared
I’m facing my biggest fear
And the end of the month is near