Story Of Renn Sypher And Isla Ivory Poem by Andrus Cassian

"Attention, attention
Can I have all your eyes and ears"
And the academy award for the most overused, outdated line of intros go to me
I thought I would start this off quite perfectly, but as you can see I'm tongue tied and quite shy
As I step out of my comfort zone to retell something I'd keep hidden
Kept in a vault
Sorry, apologies I can't grab hold of my unraveling tongue so here
indulge this weary spirit with a soft drink, rum and a hug four years overdue
Four years overdue but here we lay on satin sheets discussing the past with laughs like no time has passed
Lie if you will but I know what love is
It was this moment of reminiscing underneath amidst the flavor of her lips remembering the faintest hint of cherry blossoms filling the air
the taste of a peppermint on a cold winter day
the sweet remarkable feeling to be in her presence just to hear her laugh once more
It was all so breathtaking, even now the butterflies are taking over
a shudder down my spine, like any second now I could grow wings
If only I could grow wings and fly
I'd fly back in time to that day, Superman
relive those moments that followed over and over again
For in the moments of reminiscing
It bled into reality, that here in this plain of existence
We, two entities of shared experiences
We, two entities pulled together by fate, fatal attraction, love everlasting
are here laying together with pure joy
and not a care in the world
What matters not is tomorrow for we have the night, so this night let's make the most of it
Even now, in my mind, my memory in feels all like a dream
Heck, maybe it was
Maybe it was all an existential dream
Or maybe, just maybe…
In that moment, talking turned kissing
Kissing turned to making out
Making out turned into a blur
Maybe it was all a dream for I felt my teeth grow fangs as I bit into her neck to hear a small faint of ecstasy while she grew claws, digging into my back
My conscience, a boy infantile, asked if I was sure
I had no clue, this was uncharted territory
A trail never sailed
18 and young, trying to be full of carefree and fun is hard to do with a life full of strife, wanting to be right but always being wrong
Was I sure of this
I've wanted this for so long to be made a man, to stare into her eyes, and at least for a night feel like I was her knight
To at least for a night, say forget the rest, she's the best so time to show her
So with lamp light illuminating the room, our clothes became transparent as they became paper falling to the floor while we transformed into a tornado of passion and bodies
Trying to out entice the other before coming together as one for the first time that night
Briefly the moment passed as nervousness took over
The boy grew into a man in an hour yet legs were still weak and everything new
so here grab a shower to clear your head
She angel dipped golden flowers, sprayed with petals; I just wanted to take her and plant her in a garden
But she was in full bloom, radiant and captivating, the cool water elevating the mood as time elapsed then the end of round 2
Then it crept in, the doubt
The growing sense her responses were false, her expectations dashed
so I tried to raise the stakes, doing everything I've studied to provide her with every ounce of imminent immediate beautifully painful sensation to send her into overdrive
So lock eyes, don't break
Forehead to forehead to feel her warmth
to feel closer than we've ever felt before
There it hooked me, the sound of her breathing
Heavy yet inviting, an invader invading my eardrums and I just couldn't get enough
causing the next hour to become dark
I have no recollection for I was high off her breathing, drunk off her love
Guess I really grew wings that night for I was flying by the end
And that's image buried in my head
Our voices barely a whisper
The air between us moving like a roller coaster as the words sprayed between us were "I'm in love with you"
The night and the house, nothing else existing but us in that very moment
Combined, fused together on our very cloud; our very own atmosphere
But we had to come down for our oxygen almost gave out, still with a straight face plastered with a smile
I can honestly say it's been the best night I had in awhile
Well after I caught my breath, thank you water for helping out
But the weariness caught up and in one more hour sleep took her
I tried to follow suit but it wasn't my bed, it wasn't my territory, this moment was new
And now there's no one to put me at ease
So restless and alone I could only think, drape my arm around so she'd feel safe in her dreams while getting the rest she needs, and listen to her breathing
In that time so many thoughts poured over and formed legs to crawl all over my skin
Like what was her true opinion about our interaction
It meant the cosmos to me but was it just another night to her
She's not that type of girl, I know her more than most but I want to know her more
For one more moment in my life I felt what true love meant
For one more moment in my life my own heart swelled up and cried with delight to know what true love felt like again
while my own eyes drifted my mind started to say
"If it meant being closer to her, I'd give her 20 rings, Saturn's rings, Saturn's moons for just one year with her"
She holds my heart on a string, my words on countless pages
I just want to be in this moment with her forever
Yet that moment grew into a restless morning for she didn't awake till noon only to greet me with anticipation and yearning which sparked round 4 where I took the lead but it failed to live up our previous provocation that it felt so disappointing in my eyes I just laughed it off for she seemed unfazed
So I let her beauty be, for we had fulfilled our wishes in her bed
Our wish the fairy tale had a happily ever after but so far all I can muster is
To be continued…
Maybe it was real, maybe it was all a dream
I still stand by my words even if now they can't be reciprocated
If I had my way, right now on repeat I'd replay that moment
Those long three hours over and over
If it would just make up for those 4 years where my best friend was lost to me
Cause in those 3 hours, I was whole.
I can't speak for her but for me, for those 3 long hours the world hurt less
Heck it didn't exist and she was finally...mine