Life Questions Poem by Andrus Cassian

Life
I don't know
Life
what do you have in store for me
Life
how come you've made me into a paradox
a walking vortex of complication
Life
What were you planning when you made me
Life
I have so many questions
yet limited time to ask, yet no time for answers
I guess
Life
will you please tell me what to do
I beg you
Life
What should I do
Miranda, she wants to spend the rest of her life with me
wants to have a child that looks just like me
but I'm not ready
but I'm so unsure
Life
why do I like the thrill of a chase
love the sensation of running so fast, too strong
Life
Why did you allow me to chase a challenge
want what I can't ever obtain
for I crave the impossible
and no matter what resolution I produce
it's just no use
Life
Why do I love to run
to run, not walk
I like moving slowly, taking one step at a time
but I love the wind at my back
everything passing by so quickly
guess it's just apart of the little things I'm accustomed to
Life
Why am I still a child at heart
but an adult in ideas, body, mind, soul
Life
Why am I still called immature
when I just crave fun
when I just crave a life out of my loneliness
when I just can't stand being serious all the time
when I'm more mature than most
I've been through too much not to be
Life
how come I like to be the lone wolf, a rogue
but I seek the aid of others in my time of crisis
but I seek the aid of others when I know I can't
I can't tackle things by myself
Life
Why are you so cryptic to me
Why must things always be a mystery
Life
Why isn't there a clear outline to the path I need to take
I relish in the idea that I can make my own choices
but every choice I've made seems to have been wrong so far
but every choice I've made
seems to have been a mistake
There's way too much criticism I have to take
sometimes it makes me want to throw up
Life
I don't know what to say
and I don't know if you'll ask me questions back
Life
I have nothing more to ask
at least not today
but will you please answer me this question
cause I have wanted this for more than most of my life
Life
Will I ever have a daughter
beautiful and radiant
Life
Will Jade ever come to life
as beautiful and radiant as her mother
Life
Will I ever know who her mother will be
Life
Would she ever marry me
or would I meet her one night
in the dark and she ever be a shadow
a mystery
Life
would you ever tell me