So Hard Poem by Siya The poet

It’s so hard to be what I really am
I get carried away by my own thoughts and feelings
Not knowing what I become
Not knowing what I do
I remain a shy and timid person
But just to show the world
I act bold
I act naughty
I act like I don’t give a damn to anything
But myself
I’m someone who talks as a friend
Who listens and tries to understand
Who makes her efforts to make others smile
But she ends up becoming somebody else
People hold an image of me
An image I would never approve
But I hold their images too
Deep in my heart
I know everyone’s good
But I behave that I don’t believe what I truly feel
And end up breaking hearts
To sound a little too funny
A little too friendly
I give the impression of a flirt
I never want to insult others
Nor notice their weaknesses
But the words spill out of my mouth
And they can never come back
No matter what I do
I am a good person
At least I try to be one
But my actions prove me to be someone else
It’s so hard…
So hard to be myself
So hard to become someone
Nobody hates…
So hard…