Sick Joke Poem by Ina Davila

my tears fall onto your broken picture. your voice haunts me deep inside. ive lost hope and all compassion. ive lost all my heart and pride since you left me here to die. i feel like you have forever told me your lie. the lie that you love me but you really didnt. a lie that i kept believing. i miss you everyday of my life. the pictures of you and your future wife. they burn me deep inside. making me lose everything that i own. your last kiss has burnt into my memory and skin. our love was nothing that could have been. i sit here and i cry in the deep dark depths of this corner. broken glass shattered around me. i reach for a knife to end my pain. what is there left to do? there's nothing i can really gain. so go. be with the one you truly love. go with her but remember everything. all the pain and suffering that you put me through. the crying. the cutting. the starving. the craving. ive sat here waiting for a call from you. i must've looked like a fool to show all my pain. our love was a lie. what they had said had been true. you spent your time with me so it could be a joke. i feel the stabbing of every dagger going deeper in my back. every slight poke it doesn't hurt but makes me feel alive. even though im dead and broken on the inside. i still have a small bit of pride to defeat you by all the tears ive cried. the blood stained but somehow shiny blade. crosses my skin and slices it ever so deeply. happiness overcomes me. its finally letting me be free. as the thick red liquid runs off my arm. my vision blurs and my life begins to fade. the tears and my life begins to fade. the tears seize to fall. i hope that you lose all. all the hopes and dreams that you ever had. my breath ends so im dead so too bad. you have no one to kick around anymore. you have no ones heart to play with.