Not This Time Robby Jay Poem by ally lira

So here we are again 2 years later
you weaved yourself back into my life re-attaining the hold on my heart reserved for only you,
and once again I find myself gasping for the air you have taken out of me
I couldn't find the strength in me to love you again
to re-live what we had,
but I played the part I pretended that what you've done to me doesn't still hurt,
I plastered that smile to my face while inside I was screaming for someone to save me.
I don't love you anymore, I can barely stand the thought of you
I gave you the purest love but that's not what you wanted, and now
I find myself loveless and void, uncaring and cruel
all because of you.
You tried to play your tricks again, I know, but how did that work out for you?
I've learned your tricks, I play your tricks and now, maybe just maybe I'm too much like you. I didn't miss you one bit, I just missed your memory.
What is it you want from me?
Why are you still trying to make me yours, then casting me off?
I'm no ones property, no mans land, so go away, don't look back, and please just forget about me already
please.

dedicated to: robby jay