Mourning The Loss Poem by Wendy Murphy

Mourning the loss, I clung to the memories of you
The good times, the bad –
Though we can’t get them back
It’s what we had

At first I held on to the anger and grief
That I couldn’t see
The love I felt for you,
You couldn’t return to me

Everyday things were hard to retrieve
Your passion for music left a void in me
I couldn’t come home; it was too empty to see
The thought of you gone, I just couldn’t believe

The ache I felt deep in my heart
Came from the bond we shared from the very start
The connection between us was way too strong
Hard to believe how it all went so wrong

I wonder if the stars crashed down hard
When we fell,
Fell apart…
The flame so hot, it still burns my heart

Where did all we share go?
Was I asleep when you shut that door?
I’m wide awake now
And I don’t want to love you anymore

Your memories crush my lungs
Making it hard to breathe
It swells at my heart, making it hard to heal
When every waking moment still thinks this is just not real

So sometimes intentionally, I fall asleep
To relive our happy moments when I’m feeling blue
However fleeting, dreaming of you
Just to remember how you put the smile on my face
Or how you held me in your sweet embrace

For once was
For what again will never be
A different life of you and me
But I still see how you were, in my dream
And the bond we shared, and how life is so mean