Lonely Soldier Pt.1 Poem by Quellz Ford

There is a land with areas full of gun play n others where its all just silent
Awhole squadron gone except for one soldier that has to be silent
He has been in war with these ppl for 3 yrs n was shocked to watch them all die
Doesn't kno wat to do if he should run, take charge, or commit suicide
He is predicting no matter wat he does he is still goin to die
Tired, scared, n missin wat he left on the other side
Wat he left was a daughter, son, n a sick mother gettin ready to die
He only went to war bcuz he was 19 n didn't want to be a father n he was a gang banger thinkin he was so inferior
But wat he didn't realize was that he would never be safe n didn't have a good barrier
Nothin is safe n he can't trust anything
His mind is goin crazy he doesn't know wat is comin after him seems like everything
He doesn't kno if he can hold on
But now he keeps thinkin bout his lovely mother seeing that she might be gone
He didn't tell anyone from his hometown good-bye
He also didn't write them to even say hi
He feels sry now that he might die n won't see his loved ones
Doesn't want to be like his father but does want to see his daughter n son
He doesn't even kno his father n his big homie was his father figure
It would make him angry to see another man their male figure
So wat does he do..? ?
Wat can he do..? ?
U gonna have to see when I make part two..