Living In A Fantasy. Pt.1 Poem by hazel jackson

Seems that you being on my mind has
become a constant thing, everyday i wake up your there.
i would think that it would mean I'm getting close to seeing you, meeting you for the first time, getting to know you on a more
personal level, but think again its just a fantasy.

I can easily think of you but i cant dream of you, if i could in the world of sleep for me would always be amazing. It scares me knowing
that my dreams could sometimes become realistic because then that means no more you.

lately i find myself wishing for you to be a part of my life
and not just a fantasy. Its not fare to me for someone else to
have you and not me, but i find it easy to accept
and move on.

Dont let me continue to waste my time and life and thought on you, just sitting here waiting on you like a desert to the rain.
I'm all dried out, i couldn't cry if i wanted to, because emotions
dont phase me. I feel nothing except when i think of you and even that feeling doesn't last long.

Dont let me continue to live in a fantasy.